A Letter

I was going through emails and emptying my files when I came across an old email that was written to me at a time when I was lost, confused and overwhelmed. It gave me hope and direction to start searching for who I was and who I wanted to become. Although short, it gets to the point. It is a good reflection and a reminder for me to keep set on my goals and not forget who I am. I wanted to put this out there because it helped me and maybe it will help someone else who reads it. If not, oh well. Here you go, it still makes me smile:


To take on the world is a noble idea. There are so many needs out
there, and so many troubles. What use is time and effort if they do
not produce change and progress? Until you find out who you are,
though, you are playing dear Quixote and jousting your windmills,
Amanda.

Without going too much into the gory details of my past, I know what
it is to be lost, misunderstood, and to have that helpless feeling.
Helpless to the fact that the world is building up distractions and
set-backs to keep me down. To the point where I could not imagine
anything else bad happening, until it did. I always seemed to be the
bright and cheery person, but inside I was fighting alone. It wasn't
until I learned to shed that bright exterior, accept the person
inside me and finally explore it did I ever make any progress on my
life. Those windmills were no longer elusive at that point.

Who are you Amanda? What is it that you want from life? I don't
mean this superficially. I mean deeply. Work on those questions.
Don't supplement your needs with others. You can take on the world
much better when know your own identity within it.